As I look into the mirror of cold reality,
My dreams are frozen and ripped right out of me.
I must hear though I don’t want to,
Because all is truth that comes from you.
Reality is the salt in an open wound,
Leftovers from my previous mood.
I lingered past what I want to feel,
Still can’t tell what pain is real.
As random spikes of hope creep up,
Cold reality is just too much.
All I feel seems magnified,
My feelings spilling from the inside.

Born from the night in the roaring wind

Cast out of the shadows by an unknown
hand

Warmed by the light of these falling limbs drunk on the sadness of a universe
unmanned

Across the water she clings to meand in the rising karma

I feel her at
my side

My father's singing in the fallin' leaves about the complicated beauty of
a river run dry

Sit down by the fire Sit down by the fire

It's hard to saybut I
think you'd better just Say you don't love me you don't love me anymore

I been waiting in line now I know I'll never Overcome this madness if I don't know for sure

Across the water she clings to me and in the light of dawn I see her at my
side and my father's singing in the fallin' leaves there's no way out of this old
world even if you try

So just sit down by the firesit down by the fire there ain't
no way to get what I want Sit down by the fire oh, sit down by the fire

There ain't no way to get what I want

Some daya little rain is bound to fallSome day a little
rain is bound to fall Some day a little rain is bound to fall Some day Over my head
my heart and my feet I'm drawn insane you know I need you now Over my head my heart and my feetI'm drawn insane

Sit down by the fire lovesit down by the fire there
ain't no way to get what I want Sit down by the fire love sit down by the
fire there ain't no way to get what I want. Oh, there ain't no way to get what I
want.

27th
AUGUST
2010

I'm just waiting....

I'm just waiting, 'cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long.

Never Ever have I ever felt so low,
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never Ever have I ever felt so sad,
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad,

Never Ever have I had to find,
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind,
I've Never Ever had my conscience to fight,
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right.

I'll keep searching deep within my soul,
For all the answers, I don't wanna hurt no more,
I need peace, got to feel at ease, need to be.......
Free from pain, I'm going insane, my heart aches, yeah.

"All that this is...it's just temporary happiness
It only lasts a few seconds-minutes and when it's gone its empty again

Im in this weird place right now
I need support but I just want to be alone...."

Ande

I think in life there are things you are willing to accept and then there are things that you refuse to believe.
I think loosing someone close to you falls in the refuse to believe category.
I'm constantly convincing myself that this didn't happen and somedays i believe it. I do such a good job at lying to myself i believe that this nightmare isnt real. It isnt until i click on your facebook or go for midnight drives down to the bridge we used to sit at, I realise that your really gone. And when i say that my stomach sinks and my eyes swell up with tears. You would have a laugh with me and Sam probably about now at all the people who claim to of known you and had all these moments with you. I feel sorry for these people because they missed the chance to of known you like i did.
People say that when events like this happen that they are suppose to change you and make you stronger, but to be completely honest, i feel nothing but numbness. We're all looking after each other and missing you more everyday. We know now that it's never going to be alright now your gone but we're never going to forget you, forever and ever in our hearts.
Andrew you've been gone 1 month, now i have the rest of my life to get used to it....
Rest In Peace beautiful boy

Never ever ever ever ever

I like it rough

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like chewing on pearls.

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like straightening curls.