Ande

I think in life there are things you are willing to accept and then there are things that you refuse to believe.
I think loosing someone close to you falls in the refuse to believe category.
I'm constantly convincing myself that this didn't happen and somedays i believe it. I do such a good job at lying to myself i believe that this nightmare isnt real. It isnt until i click on your facebook or go for midnight drives down to the bridge we used to sit at, I realise that your really gone. And when i say that my stomach sinks and my eyes swell up with tears. You would have a laugh with me and Sam probably about now at all the people who claim to of known you and had all these moments with you. I feel sorry for these people because they missed the chance to of known you like i did.
People say that when events like this happen that they are suppose to change you and make you stronger, but to be completely honest, i feel nothing but numbness. We're all looking after each other and missing you more everyday. We know now that it's never going to be alright now your gone but we're never going to forget you, forever and ever in our hearts.
Andrew you've been gone 1 month, now i have the rest of my life to get used to it....
Rest In Peace beautiful boy