As I look into the mirror of cold reality,
My dreams are frozen and ripped right out of me.
I must hear though I don’t want to,
Because all is truth that comes from you.
Reality is the salt in an open wound,
Leftovers from my previous mood.
I lingered past what I want to feel,
Still can’t tell what pain is real.
As random spikes of hope creep up,
Cold reality is just too much.
All I feel seems magnified,
My feelings spilling from the inside.

Born from the night in the roaring wind

Cast out of the shadows by an unknown
hand

Warmed by the light of these falling limbs drunk on the sadness of a universe
unmanned

Across the water she clings to meand in the rising karma

I feel her at
my side

My father's singing in the fallin' leaves about the complicated beauty of
a river run dry

Sit down by the fire Sit down by the fire

It's hard to saybut I
think you'd better just Say you don't love me you don't love me anymore

I been waiting in line now I know I'll never Overcome this madness if I don't know for sure

Across the water she clings to me and in the light of dawn I see her at my
side and my father's singing in the fallin' leaves there's no way out of this old
world even if you try

So just sit down by the firesit down by the fire there ain't
no way to get what I want Sit down by the fire oh, sit down by the fire

There ain't no way to get what I want

Some daya little rain is bound to fallSome day a little
rain is bound to fall Some day a little rain is bound to fall Some day Over my head
my heart and my feet I'm drawn insane you know I need you now Over my head my heart and my feetI'm drawn insane

Sit down by the fire lovesit down by the fire there
ain't no way to get what I want Sit down by the fire love sit down by the
fire there ain't no way to get what I want. Oh, there ain't no way to get what I
want.

27th
AUGUST
2010

I'm just waiting....

I'm just waiting, 'cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long.

Never Ever have I ever felt so low,
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never Ever have I ever felt so sad,
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad,

Never Ever have I had to find,
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind,
I've Never Ever had my conscience to fight,
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right.

I'll keep searching deep within my soul,
For all the answers, I don't wanna hurt no more,
I need peace, got to feel at ease, need to be.......
Free from pain, I'm going insane, my heart aches, yeah.

"All that this is...it's just temporary happiness
It only lasts a few seconds-minutes and when it's gone its empty again

Im in this weird place right now
I need support but I just want to be alone...."

Ande

I think in life there are things you are willing to accept and then there are things that you refuse to believe.
I think loosing someone close to you falls in the refuse to believe category.
I'm constantly convincing myself that this didn't happen and somedays i believe it. I do such a good job at lying to myself i believe that this nightmare isnt real. It isnt until i click on your facebook or go for midnight drives down to the bridge we used to sit at, I realise that your really gone. And when i say that my stomach sinks and my eyes swell up with tears. You would have a laugh with me and Sam probably about now at all the people who claim to of known you and had all these moments with you. I feel sorry for these people because they missed the chance to of known you like i did.
People say that when events like this happen that they are suppose to change you and make you stronger, but to be completely honest, i feel nothing but numbness. We're all looking after each other and missing you more everyday. We know now that it's never going to be alright now your gone but we're never going to forget you, forever and ever in our hearts.
Andrew you've been gone 1 month, now i have the rest of my life to get used to it....
Rest In Peace beautiful boy

Never ever ever ever ever

I like it rough

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like chewing on pearls.

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like straightening curls.

Use Somebody...

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

They've been going out for a while and he's been getting upset because other guys have been asking her out. And she's saying she can't help it if she's attractive and popular. And besides, nobody ever said they were going steady, and if he does want to go steady, he's got to do a lot more than just movie-burger-backseat, movie-burger-backseat, because there are plenty of guys with bigger backseats waiting to take her some place nice!"

- Quinn Morgendorffer

Can't wear the face if you don't have the head for it.
And it starts to, fit like a skin with no pores cut to breathe through

So what if i like to get nude, climb up onto my loosely anchored metal roof and hold tightly onto my poisoned arrows? the people nearby must learn to live with an active volcano.

My wish

Subtitles...

Come back

Just when i started to forget about this nightmare, i remembered it was real.
My scars are still raw
My head still hurts
My stomach twirls when i think about it
And my eyes fill with tears

Come back to us already, we miss you and its drive me to insanity

Sidekick

I called out across the sea
‘Normality! Can you hear me?’
But there came back no reply
I hung my head and started to cry

Well I am the shape of a lonely soldier
Oh, I am the shape of a single structure
But even the bravest Lions,
They need a sidekick
I know that even the tallest kings,
They need a sidekick

There’s no place like the place we used to go
There’s no friends like the friends we used to know
like the friends we used to know

If I could dig a tunnel I would
Oh, I’d network under your neighbourhood
Oh, We’d meet there all through the night
Drink and smoke and laugh and fight

I would see the Luna, love
You look like the moon above

What we have here is a dreamer

Someone so out of touch with reality, that if she jumped, she probably thought she could fly...

.....

It's alot eaiser to say your mad, than to admit you're hurt.

Freddie and Effy

Save me

Save me from the darkness or join the dark cloud cover above my head.

Wait it out

Where do we go from here?
How do we carry on?
I can't get beyond the questions.
Clambering for the scraps
in the shatter of us collapsed.
It cuts me with every could-have-been.

Pain on pain on play, repeating
With the backup makeshift life in waiting.

Everybody says time heals everything.
But what of the wretched hollow?
The endless in-between?
Are we just going to wait it out?

There's nothing to see here now,
turning the sign around;
We're closed to the Earth 'til further notice.
A Stumbling cliche case,
crumbled and puffy faced.
Dead in the stare of a thousand miles.

All I want, only one street-level miracle.
I'll be a an out-and-out, born again from none more cynical.

And sit here cold?
Well, We'll be long gone by then.
And lackluster in dust we lay
Around old magazines.
Fluorescent lighting sets the scene
for all we could and should be being
in the one life that we've got.

Tears

Grit your teeth; Hold them back; Push them down

In my heart

You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want, smile, open your eyes, love and go on, always holding his memory in your heart.

Falling....

I hate how painfully fragile life is
*Falling into a depressed slumber

Andrew Lithgow

To one of the most fun, loving and caring friends I have ever had.
You were excessively funny, and always made me laugh.

Thankyou for looking after me
Thankyou for looking my entire family
Thankyou for the laughs
Thankyou for the smiles
Thankyou for the memories

I need you here with your thumbs up, lanky stance and geeky giggle.
Things down here are tough, and we all miss you like you wouldn't believe.
But i get by knowing that i'll see you again one day

Rest in peace Andrew Lithgow
You will not be forgotten
Missing you already

Effy -Loneliest Girl in the World

You are the loneliest girl in the world
Taking your hits as they come
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And tonight youd fall for anyone
It's in the way you fall down to bed
It's in the way you cry when he's not looking
You are the loneliest girl in the world
I'll watch you die a thousand times again
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And I just want to make it go away

Time

I can't

es

I forgot.

I forgot that life is fragile,
hearts are only protected by a thin little cage of bones,
people are born and die every day,
time slips away too quickly ,
drugs and alchol effect the brain,
studying pays off,
love is a big word,
sometimes you never get over certain people,
being a bitch is pointless,
running away from things doesn't solve anything,
i am my own person,
family means backbone,
there are too many choices,
one thing can impact your entire life,
i am a good person,
paitence is necessary

I forgot alot of things but remembered,
I'm lucky to be here

Poison

Now the medicine man comes and he shuffles inside
He walks with a swagger and he says to the bride
"Stop all this weeping, swallow your pride
You will not die, it's not poison"