27th
AUGUST
2010

I'm just waiting....

I'm just waiting, 'cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long.

Never Ever have I ever felt so low,
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never Ever have I ever felt so sad,
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad,

Never Ever have I had to find,
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind,
I've Never Ever had my conscience to fight,
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right.

I'll keep searching deep within my soul,
For all the answers, I don't wanna hurt no more,
I need peace, got to feel at ease, need to be.......
Free from pain, I'm going insane, my heart aches, yeah.

"All that this is...it's just temporary happiness
It only lasts a few seconds-minutes and when it's gone its empty again

Im in this weird place right now
I need support but I just want to be alone...."

Ande

I think in life there are things you are willing to accept and then there are things that you refuse to believe.
I think loosing someone close to you falls in the refuse to believe category.
I'm constantly convincing myself that this didn't happen and somedays i believe it. I do such a good job at lying to myself i believe that this nightmare isnt real. It isnt until i click on your facebook or go for midnight drives down to the bridge we used to sit at, I realise that your really gone. And when i say that my stomach sinks and my eyes swell up with tears. You would have a laugh with me and Sam probably about now at all the people who claim to of known you and had all these moments with you. I feel sorry for these people because they missed the chance to of known you like i did.
People say that when events like this happen that they are suppose to change you and make you stronger, but to be completely honest, i feel nothing but numbness. We're all looking after each other and missing you more everyday. We know now that it's never going to be alright now your gone but we're never going to forget you, forever and ever in our hearts.
Andrew you've been gone 1 month, now i have the rest of my life to get used to it....
Rest In Peace beautiful boy

Never ever ever ever ever

I like it rough

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like chewing on pearls.

'Cause it's a hard life, with love in the world,
And I'm a hard girl,
Loving me is like straightening curls.

Use Somebody...

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now
Im ready now

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

They've been going out for a while and he's been getting upset because other guys have been asking her out. And she's saying she can't help it if she's attractive and popular. And besides, nobody ever said they were going steady, and if he does want to go steady, he's got to do a lot more than just movie-burger-backseat, movie-burger-backseat, because there are plenty of guys with bigger backseats waiting to take her some place nice!"

- Quinn Morgendorffer

Can't wear the face if you don't have the head for it.
And it starts to, fit like a skin with no pores cut to breathe through

So what if i like to get nude, climb up onto my loosely anchored metal roof and hold tightly onto my poisoned arrows? the people nearby must learn to live with an active volcano.

My wish

Subtitles...

Come back

Just when i started to forget about this nightmare, i remembered it was real.
My scars are still raw
My head still hurts
My stomach twirls when i think about it
And my eyes fill with tears

Come back to us already, we miss you and its drive me to insanity

Sidekick

I called out across the sea
‘Normality! Can you hear me?’
But there came back no reply
I hung my head and started to cry

Well I am the shape of a lonely soldier
Oh, I am the shape of a single structure
But even the bravest Lions,
They need a sidekick
I know that even the tallest kings,
They need a sidekick

There’s no place like the place we used to go
There’s no friends like the friends we used to know
like the friends we used to know

If I could dig a tunnel I would
Oh, I’d network under your neighbourhood
Oh, We’d meet there all through the night
Drink and smoke and laugh and fight

I would see the Luna, love
You look like the moon above