Hero

Open wide, here comes
Original sin
It's alright,
No one's got it all

Power to the people
We don't want it
We want pleasure
And the TVs try to rape us
And I guess that they're succeeding
And we're going to these meetings
But we're not doing any meeting
And we're trying to be faithful, but we're
Cheating, cheating, cheating

I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
It's alright, it's alright
No one's got it all

Trying hard to be tough

What i'm doing these days

Dreaming old dreams
Wishing new dreams
Trying to replace you
I wake up and tear drops fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I head off to school, guess not much has changed.
Watch the clock
Head for home
Check the phone, just in case
Go to bed
Dream of you

All Alone

Never wanted to feel. Never wanted to steal my heart.
Never wanted to know. Never wanted show I'm weak

I'm falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you were dead and walk me home
So i wouldn't have to feel alone

Always wanted to be. Always wanted to see my heart
Always wanted your love. Always wanted but never was

Dying to be someone else
I don't wanna fight the world alone
Told you before
Never loved you more

All alone

J.A

Forgetting you

I know I said I was carefree that day. Because I felt that all the hope and shelter I needed was from you. Holding your hand was enough for me. But at the same time, the wind fastened the beat of my heart. I was terrified. Yet, I never moved because, whether you think I’m stupid or not, I never wanted to be without you.

I felt dizzier just by watching the clouds today. So I sat up. I felt like vomiting. In a way, I wish I did. It would have been a relief for me, like starting new. Memories are supposed to be held close to the heart. But I wish I had nothing to do with you anymore. It just hurts way too much.

It may take longer than i want to recover from this. The pain at times is unbearable.
I am lost.
I am alone.
I am confused.
I am insecure.
I am broken.
I am damaged.
I am twisted.
I am weak.
I am struggling at times to make sense of how quickly things changed.
I am afraid to fall for the same sepcies that has already had the power to break me and leave me once before.
But I am hopeful.
I am strong.
I am brave.
I am tough.
I am going to feel alive again.

I'm good at denying my feelings or avoiding the talk about my emotions but although I say i have forgotten i will never forget how quickly it is to be unloved and forgotten. And although i say i dont care, it burns a deep hole through my tounge everytime i speak these lies.

Seconds, mintues, hours, days, weeks and months pass by and i deny the amount of time i sit around and miss you. I'll miss the days when i forget you all together and love someone new. And although I may have found a new somebody in my life, i cant help but remember what if and why?

So I'm moving on without you and I'm going to be just fine but It's crazy to think how significant people and parts in our lives are so hard to forget when we are trying so hard too.

#33

You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect togetherbit if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you apart of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.


-Bob Marley

Today,

Today, the importance of protecting dreams.

Zombie

I'm not listening to you
I am wandering right through existance
With no purpose and no drive
Cause in the end we're all alive
Two thousand years I've been awake
Waiting for the day to shake

To all of you who've wronged me
I am. I am a zombie
Again you want me to fall on my head
I am, I am, I am a zombie
How low will you push me
To go before I lie, lie down dead

Blow the smoke right off the tube
Kiss my gentle burning bruise
I'm lost in time
To all the people left behind
you are walking dumb and blind

Dear all of you who've wronged me
I am a zombie

Wounds

You are wounded.
And in fact if you do not deal with these wounds soon enough, you will become a monster. And who knows how to stop wounded monsters?

From heaven to hell and back again, life is a funny thing.

Why

Why does it hurt so bad?
Why do I miss you?
Why am I not over you?
Why do I keep dreaming of you every day and night?
I guess I’ll never know. I guess I might have to wait. Cherish that last kiss. Keep you tide to my heart. Dream of you. Wish for you. Until we meet again. You’ll visit me in my dreams and I’ll find my way to appear in yours. I dont know when. I dont know how. I’ll see you again and then I’ll run into your arms. Run as fast as I can and slowly whisper. I love you.

Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

-RichardMarx

Lonely only knows

Clearly...

Taste your beating heart

If you could only see the beast you’ve made of me
I held it in but now it seems instead you’re running free
Screaming in the dark, I howl when we’re apart
Drive our teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart

Down, down, down...

..down, wondering when we'll reach our destination, yet not wanting to be through with this. Reasons mean nothing. Time is too slow. Days go by and we're coasting on caffeine and the racing of our minds. Still, we fall further and further down, down, down the rabbit hole, swallowing only air. "Well!" thought Alice to herself, "after such a fall as this, I shall think nothing of tumbling down stairs!"

Somethings you never ever get over

Partners in crime

“The head never rules the heart, but just becomes its partner in crime.”
-Michael McLaughlin

Your options.

I’m trapped inside my skeleton

I’m trapped inside my skeleton
My organs, my only friends

I filled my gut with liquor
A little poison for the soul

I’ve mixed up all my tenses
Got no past or future left
All I’ve got is the present
And right now I feel like death

Oh I think this is the end
I’m stuck inside a prison
I’m trapped inside my skeleton
Loneliness my only friend

Being young

Broken

I'll follow you

Where do you go when you’re lonely?
Where do you go when you’re blue?
Where do you go when you’re lonely i’ll follow you.

O.M

but you did

Constantly

I find myself constantly blogging or writing about the person I dont want to think about anymore.
I miss him. Its undeniable. I can try and avoid it as much as i want, but i can't help aching to have him back whenever he vaguely crosses my mind.
The worst part probaly is that he doesn't miss me back.
I wouldnt be suprised if i even never crossed his mind.
Nothing will change.
Now the only thing i can seem to do is sit here and gruelling wait for this pain to past.

Bitter

You were the final straw that made me bitter.
Now everything i see comes with a certain darkness.
You’ve taken away the good and left me hesitant about living and loving

Just do it

...........

Promise

Valentines Day

So here's to tomorrow, because tomorrow is the only day which (secretly) tortures lonely, single people and gives importance to people bitten by the love bug.
So as far as i'm concerned Valentines Day can kiss my ass.

You

Alive

And after all the hurt and all that pain, you meet somebody and you see in there eyes that incling of hope you have been searching for. And it isnt until now you begin to realise maybe you were alive afterall.

The world is at your feet

It is easy to forget that there are bigger things in life than our own petty little problems

Scream

I think I'll appreciate rage later, as undeniable evidence of life,
but not now.

A temporary solution:
find and immerse repeatedly in a spectacular live performance of a perfect song
it doesn't cure; it numbs
sometimes numbing is okay

Fascinations

I've always been fascinated and a little scared by the concept of outer space,
so large and glamorous and mysterious.
maybe it is the enormity of the unknown,
and the possibility of never finding your way back again

I'm up late looking for answers

(Honestly, most of the time my life feels like this. Pondering the question, why am I here)

Tattoos and broken hearts

Annabelle

I'll be there soon

With my sword held high I'll face these dangers
I'll face these giants these dragons, these ogres
I'll conquer this magic these sorcerers and witches
Just to get to my princess my princess

Let me tell you a little bit about her
Her hair's as bright as the sunshine
Gotta save her gotta save her
Her smile lights up the darkest night

Annabelle I'm coming for you...

I'll cross these swamplands, I'll fight these bad men
I'll climb the tower to reach her eyes
I'll use these fireflies to light up the night sky
And let everyone know that I am hers and she is mine

Milk

I am lost, so I am cruel
but I'd be love and sweetness, if I had you
I am weak, but I am strong
I can use my tears to bring you home

Milk by Garbage

This is how it is

I want to die in the hot summer.
I love you but I've chosen darkness

Human

I won’t pick you up again
I’ve been breaking my back with the weight of your heart
Don't forget
I'm only human

Human by The Cinematics

I had seven faces

I had seven faces
thought I knew which one to wear
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
training myself not to care